I have this holy trinity of giftedness, NVLD and trauma. I'm 38 years old now and I've been taken Sertraline for 10 years. Since the summer I've been doing a lot of breathwork and it made a world of difference. To the exent that I decided to try and taper off of the meds. This went well for 5.5 months but the last few weeks have been really hard.
Which made me wonder. I've always considered taking the medication as a form of weakness, since I'm dependent on something external. And I've always considered it something I need to cope with my core wound of not being good enough while at the same time prohibiting me from real healing.
But the last weeks I've also discovered the concept of twice exceptional and I've been thinking that maybe my brain is just wired in such a way that everything is experienced more intensely, that I can very easily see all the worst case scenarios etc. and that medication isn't per se a bad thing to help with that, even despite doing therapy and breathwork etc. Like people who have a heart disease, they eat healthy, they work out, but sometimes they also still need medication to help them.
I'm curious to hear your thoughts since I've not seen antidepressants mentioned in this sub when I searched for it.