Life...
Life...
Life, for msny of us, is not what "planned" for us. "Go to school, graduate, work hard, find love, play the game and retire with smart investments." I failed at almost all of these, at least the ones applical to my age. But for many of you it's not too late.
Cherish the times with your loved ones. You can't find happiness if you don't try. Go outside your comfort zones, fail and fail again. You WILL find success. It's not always going to always be fair....but you MUST try. Things won't come easy. Sitting around feeling sorry for yourself in any capacity (not just in the context of this sub) will turn your entire being into that suffering "victim." And please please please trust me. That is NOT what anyone was meant to be.
Your existence is a miracle. We have trials and tribulations. Some more than others, depending on your prospective. Have you ever considered while sulking in your bed of despair that there is an immeasurable amount of people, from all backgrounds, that would kill to have YOUR specific life? Even at it's very worst? Keep that prospective. At all times. Adopt and acknowledge it at all times. It could save your life someday.
I have spent too many years shaping my personality into the "why me?" Guy even after a revelation that transpired from suffering. I embraced this with great pride...too much pride. In my conquest I thought I was invincible. Instead of remaining stoic and learning from my past. "Fair" or "not fair". I slowly slipped into the bsd habits that, jn many cases, placed me into the same situation I was jn before. I lost. I lost the things I most wanted in life. And here I am again...a rock bottom pf sorts. My confidence is drained, feel more lost and alone than ever. Terrified is an understatement. And I yet I only have myself to blame.
Im ranting. But I guess my point is if you bounce back and gain that revelation Hold on to it dearly. Don't forget t you've come from. You may not get that second chance. It's doubtful I will.
You all have shown me so much love. I'm sorry for giving advice help alleviate these troubles a lot lot of us can relate to. But I am ashamed to say it came from hypocrit. That's just the stone cold truth.
Sorry for the buzkilll post. I would npt hut myself! Let that be clear! I also dont want the sub to go to shit. Its up to Peter and Kev if I should stay on the team.
-Rust