I feel like I’m going crazy - anxiety versus reality
I’ve had a long history of PVCs and other palpitations but luckily usually a very low % burden. But I don’t have much recent data on it because I don’t own a home monitor and the latest monitors from my doctor are from a few years ago.
Lately I’ve been waking up at night with a lot of anxiety, feeling like I’m having a ton of gentle PVCs. Since I’m half asleep (and don’t have a monitor device), it’s hard to know with any certainty what’s actually going on. When I intentionally feel my pulse with my fingers during this late night episodes, it actually does feel like I’m having frequent gentle PVCs, but again it’s hard to be sure when I’m half asleep and don’t have a monitor device.
I think it’s likely that the PVCs are harmless (even if maybe greatly increased in frequency during these episodes) but late at night it still creates this massive sense of anxiety, dread, and worry, which in turn disrupts my sleep for the rest of the night. And of course inadequate sleep messed up everything in life.
And I hate this uncertainty feeling of not knowing what’s real versus imaginary, what’s anxiety versus reality, what’s dangerous versus harmless. It’s making me want to run back to my cardiologist (who I’ve been trying not to bother) and run to a psychiatrist…
Anyone have insights or similar experiences?
Thanks.
(FWIW I’m 44m, lots of cardiac workup five years ago which didn’t find anything concerning, taking metoprolol anyway to keep things calm because of the variety of palpitations documented in my years-ago monitors despite low % burden).