What’s the ONE THING that makes you think you’re a trans man? (For me it was hating pregnancy)
Like said, I hate pregnancy, or becoming a housewife and mother as a whole, I mean…. I hate being all this feminine stuff!
And my gender dysphoria haven’t get better after detransition. It got worse !
I mean, I still have the masculine tomboyish energy as of always, my personality doesn’t change(and will never change), so did my still existing gender dysphoria on female reproductive system. My hatred for pregnancy is SO DEEP, when I learned about pregnancy at age 10, I wanna vomit, just hearing about the concept of female reproduction makes me feel suicidal.
Hating pregnancy makes me think I have gender dysphoria, and the dysphoria now is like said, even deeper! as whenever I heard the term “pregnancy”, or knowing someone I know getting pregnant makes me sick to my stomach or makes me wanna cry even, I mean, I do not have dysphoria for my breasts or hip, only reproductive system.
Plus let alone pregnancy, whenever I heard the term “heterosexuality” I got disgusted too, I am lowkey hetero-phobic due to me not being a straight woman. Aside from that what makes me think I am trans is how I am also a total fucking tomboy who is also a lesbian (I am like a perfect storm for rapid onset gender dysphoria).
What should I do? I know this mindset is unhealthy, I think this is more like my inner voice “I am a tomboy and lesbian and gender non conformist, so I hate straight couples, girly girls, and most of all pregnant people!”, I mean, this mindset I know it’s toxic, it is reverse discrimination, it’s almost like, I want a world if everyone were like me and think like me it would be better, like, being a tomboy or masculine woman is hard and lonely, as if you are a tomboy you’re either judged, pressured to be feminine, or told that you’re actually a trans man by trans activists. I wish a world were tomboy woman like me are more excepted and gender non conformity ain’t usually viewed as “just a phase”. Detransition for the first few year is tough, because although I detransition, my attitude through life hasn’t, and I still have gender dysphoria. Like, in real life I wasn’t supported being a trans man, and now I wasn’t supported of just being a masculine woman either, detransition doesn’t help !