Comparing Myself to other Women
Just two weeks ago, I found out how bad my husband addiction was by going through his phone. After months of little to no intimacy, I’d say we’re slowly getting there 😅 but it’s hard not to think about what I saw. A couple days ago I was on top and he had his eyes closed the entire time… I asked him about it and his explanation was basically “idk.” Today, we went to a mall to look for some new summer/spring clothes for me. As we’re driving there was a woman walking on the sidewalk & he says he likes her dress and maybe I should buy something like that (it was a really cute dress honestly). Before finding out about his addiction, this would’ve been a normal conversation but I have been so angry/hurt for the rest of the day. Our ride home and rest of the day has been spent in silence. I couldn’t even focus on clothes shopping because I just feel so ugly and insecure. I’ve never had high self esteem in the first place, I thought being with my husband was the one place I could truly be comfortable with what I look like instead of always analyzing what my body looks like at any given moment. The women he watched looked nothing like me. He’s told me he likes big butts… I have no butt. He’s not a fan of boobs… all I have to offer is big boobs 🥲 I feel so gross and not looking forward to finding clothes for summer.
Anyways.. any recommendations on where to get cute clothes for spring? Bonus if it’s plus sized ☺️🌸