u/quirky_devil

long story short, i did awful things that led me to being kicked out from a group i used to socialise in. since then, i've been trying to be a much better person, but i can't help but think about it sometimes. thinking back, i wasn't given a chance to apologise, which makes me ruminate harder because it's like an 'unfinished situation'. not only that, but i feel like i can never be in a social group ever again, fearing that someone will bring up the controversy again. what do i do? should i just give up on socialising? and more importantly, how do i heal from the past and the people i hurt?