Heartbreak
so me and my ex was together for 6 months and honestly he live bombed the fuck out of me fell pregnant twice second time I miscarried 😔 and throughout the relationship I was always the problem he never wanted me to talk to anyone about anything and anytime I did it was “why can’t you keep out business between us” then when things went badly he put hands on the earlier this month and he previously acted out like he was gunna SA me but he didn’t he was angry because I asked for affection and comfort from him and because I wasn’t understanding at that moment he did that…he also bit me and we wrestled…it’s been really traumatic…he never asked about me never asked how I was doing and when things got bad the day I was miscarrying we had an argument and he put his hands over my nose and mouth for a little then stopped and said he would slap me if I didn’t shut up…he also put his housemates girlfriends toothbrush up his ass and I tried to tell her that he’s nasty but she didn’t believe me and blocked me on everything the day we had the bad argument (day I was miscarrying) he kicked me out his flat an said I was lying about the miscarriage ( he got the pads…) because he didn’t want his housemate to hear me he also told me the day I miscarried I had a hostile womb and he didn’t see me as marriage material… it’s all so messed up but I keep remembering the times I was happy and knowing I’m blocked just kills me ….weirdly his best friend/housemate still follows me on Instagram
Am I crazy? Was I just in a really abusive relationship? Why do I miss him?