Dysphoria discovery!
I just spent some time on r/lesbianorlittleboy and it dawned on me that THIS is why I never really felt dysphoria until middle age. Until now, I’d always looked very youthful when presenting androgynously, like a young boy. It suited me. Now I really WANT to look like a grown up, like someone who has lived half a life, but aging has me just looking strange and saggy. In the span of a few years I went from Peter Pan to… Peter Pan played off broadway by a middle aged woman. I am so ready to look like a grown up now and I think that includes biceps and a mustache.