u/pretzel_cat444

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My partner has attempted over 6 times this last mouth and I'm trying so hard to keep him sane

Its horrific to watch him go up and down and say he wants to 💀, it's taken its tole on me and I picked up sh again to handle it, I just feel like I could lose him at any moment and I'd never really know (we live in different states at the moment and his parents hate me) God what do I do at this point, i know I can't give him a will to live but i love him so much it hurts:((

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My fiance (20 ftm) and me 22(f), we'll call him, EM.

EM attempted 6 times in the last mouths because we broke up and somewhat got back together (Adding that making 10 attempts for him since I've known him). He is not from my state and I was living with him at the time, I left back to my home state because I had no way to stay without him when he was taken to the hospital after the first attempt (Yes I feel horrible for it it was my last decision). In short he is very mentally ill, he's been diagnosed with OCD, bipolar, BPD with psychotic tendencies, and is on the autism spectrum, not to mention trauma from EMS (Works in first response). I'm extremely worried for him as I love him very much and I'm trying to be there for him but keep a distance so he doesn't try and depend on me mentally. I want a future with him so badly but it's heart breaking to see him in such a state that he can barly find a reason to live. Dose anyone have any advice on how to help him or what to do? I can't just let him die even if I know I can't stop him if that's truly what he chooses I just can't give up on him:(