Child recently initially diagnosed with OCD
This week our child had a mental breakdown and while in the ER the resident psychiatrist said he seems to have. OCD. My 💔 because my son as I knew him is forever gone. It might sound selfish and I still love my son no matter what but it has been very very tough for me to deal with. I'm not much of a crier but these last few days the feelings have just overwhelmed me to the point where I now question my own mental state. Work has gotten so insignificant but I need to move forward because people depend on me when I would just rather curl up in a ball and ask , "why him"? I'm am looking back and thinking, "was I too hard on him? did we push him too hard to get good grades? etc etc. I feel like I've failed my son. The desperate and helpless feeling of not being able to help my son while he is suffering rips my insides to a million pieces. The cruel joke happens when he has bouts of "normalcy" only to be taken away in an instant by saying the wrong word then damage control needs to take place. I feel so alone