I think I suffer from age regression and taller, older men trigger me to act way different than I normally would behave
I don't really know how to describe it, but I don't like it
I was standing in line while grocery shopping and the older, way taller man in front of me turned around and looked down to me
He was just looking, nothing sexual, nothing weird, he just turned around, looked for some seconds, and turned back
And I realized my dad always did that when he was angry
He was a bitter, drunk, "tough luck" man and he wasn't the best dad, and he always towered over me and looked down to me to intimidate me instead of using his words
And when the man turned around, I felt like fawning
Like I was shrinking, making big eyes to "appear harmless", my pulse went through the roof and I wanted to instantly disappear, if that makes sense
I feel so stupid
I am 24 and I feel like a stupid child anytime a man towers over me
Like normally, I am introverted but don't mind strangers, I don't have problems interacting with them, sometimes I enjoy a tiny chat with other women when they come up to me and ask something, but when it's a man towering over me, it's basically over with normal interaction
I know therapy would help, and I've been looking for a therapist, but so far none of them took new clients and I keep looking, but I wanted to know if others have the same problem and what they do when trauma kicks in?