u/pamplamouse

The unimaginable pain that I experienced because nobody cares or wants me. I'm not going around asking people, I used to do that but I gave up on that. I can't even tell you what kind of place I'm in. It's just the darkest most loneliest place. I don't know if anyone could ever meet me here. I don't know if I would want them to try. It's like I have no soul. I'm just broken top to bottom. There's almost nothing left of me. I don't know. I cry for what might have been. I try to forgive myself because what else is there? Trying to forgive myself and be right here right now. Right now I'm in so much pain.

I guess I just want some encouragement to do what I want to do. I'm in a job that I dislike but most importantly my boss is controlling and intimidating. I've decided I really don't want to do it anymore but for some reason I'm just having trouble quitting. I need to send him a text but I keep on questioning what I'm going to say. Am I going to be available for ongoing shifts.? My fear and anxiety is so huge and it's telling me that something just isn't right, even if it's just for my mental health. But I know due to compulsive people pleasing I would probably say automatically yeah I'll take an extra shift. The kind of emotional pressure that he puts on me is beyond words and I don't really even trust myself around him. I know this sounds dramatic because it's just a job, it's just a boss. He hasn't hit me. He hasn't threatened me. But I do think he gets off on the fact that I'm afraid of him. Please help. I know this is just about me and my issues. I need to have the courage to quit this job and know my rights. Do you think that I could just send him a text and say, I can't do this anymore?