Conflicting feelings about daycare
FTM to an 11 week old who I love dearly, but I’m struggling so much with PPA and PPD. I just started Paxil a week ago, but so far it has made my anxiety worse - heart palpitations, can’t eat, sleeping too much (I’m lucky that baby sleeps well at night and husband helps a lot) and still physically exhausted all the time. I’m going back to work and baby will start daycare at 16 weeks and honestly it feels like a light at the end of the tunnel. I know I will be sad and miss him during the day, but I can’t help but feel relief at the idea of getting a break during the day and returning to some sense of normalcy and my old life. Does anyone else feel like this? Feeling like a terrible mom for even having these thoughts but I’m suffocating under the weight of mental illness right now.