am i being irrational for thinking my friends don’t like me anymore?
when i graduated high school, i found out that my closest friends (my ‘found family’) had a group chat without me and would talk so badly about me behind my back.
it’s been a few years since that, and i made a group of new friends two months ago with some individuals i felt really happy with. i hung out with one of them specifically (T) a couple times, and as a full group, only once.
most recently, two weeks ago, they’d all gone somewhere without me. i couldn’t make it bc of other commitments. there was an instance before this hangout where a trio hangout became a duo hangout with just me and T, because someone else from the group canceled last second. i told T that it made me a little angry for a bit bc i cancelled other plans to do this and she didn’t even show up, and im scared T might’ve told her that and they might’ve talked about me being too angry or rude. even tho i said i got over it quickly!! i was even nice to her :-/
i believe this because i texted the gc the next day, a question for a future hangout, and absolutely no response.
T is the one i’d hang out with frequently more, so i sent him a text, just a meme, and he replied back nicely. but when i brought up a place he might like to go to he said he was busy.
i understand he could genuinely, sincerely be busy with studies. and i know i didn’t clearlyyy make it an invitation to go with me but i was getting there 😭
am i being crazy yall. do these people want nothing to do with me :-( what should i even do. i don’t want to text the gc again and im scared if i text him ill come off as really clingy. i wanna bump into him randomly on campus and talk to him about it but that sounds just like a fantasy 😭