u/onlyforyoumyheart

U right now for more than one thing. Just being in your presence would heal me. Send me a thought, and i’ll blow you a kiss.

sure that you think about me when you… I can feel it every time.

I’m glad that I got to love you. I’m glad that I got to love; And i’m glad that I got to love you. I miss you. But I wont text. I want to hear your voice but I wont call. I love you. and I’m glad. I’m glad that I was even given the chance.

What was the connection between him and I supposed to teach me? Is it over for good?

[Flashback]

Not much needs to be said. I mean you were there so you know. Life changing encounter. Smooth skin. Hand in hand. Waiting to see who’d give in first. Probably me. Maybe it was you. Who knows. I remember some of the things you said. I hold onto your words. Replaying them. Like a broken record. Like a broken record in my head. I sing to myself an ode to you. And when I hit the high note the world melts away. And I fall. Fall Fall Fall until you catch me. And i’ve returned back safe into your arms.

have been the best part of my day. It got better, but then it got worse. This day has been hard but it’s almost over. And honestly, you might not even know it but I wouldn’t have gotten to this point without you. So I thank you for that. I thank you for existing. I thank you for texting me on a random monday some weeks ago, For showing me that yes. You did in fact still care. For giving me hope. Because without that. Today. Would have been extremely, extremely worse. And hmm. How marvelous that we disagree about our super heros. I’m onto youuuu

3 words eight letters :P

suh due ur last message made me laugh. a lot. u should know by now that im goofy as hell. i try to hide it but im sure it doesn’t work that often. i cringe at some of the things you’ve probably seen me do before. or heard me say. just me bein goofy. colon p. won’t even get specific. just gonna let it be in the past. and hope that you just forget.

so here’s the part where i swallow my pride and tell you some difficult things. first things first i really really missed u that day. wish you could have been my plus one. secondly, just because i love you, and not afraid to say it (don’t want it to come across as love bombing) doesn’t mean that i want to restrict you. from… you know living your life. the world is your oyster and you’ve got a lot ahead of you so i wouldn’t want to get in the way of you finding yourself, finding what it is in life that you want, finding out who you want to be with, or without. that part is up to you. and it always will be.

at the same time however, i am still human and i do get jealous. so i wont pry. and wont try and figure that part of you out. some things are better left unsaid. and unknown. just be safe please. please be safe. and for the love of boobs, please do not use sexuality as some form of manipulation. a tool. and don’t misunderstand me now. i love a tease but don’t try to make me jealous. or insecure. not only is that ugly (& bby god don’t like ugly) but it’s weak. done before. it’s sorry. easy. tired. washed. that method is just fucking washed. and it’s something i’d never do to you either. i’d never belittle you, never make you second guess yourself. or your worth. in and out of the bedroom. on, or offline. i only say this because that’s one of the ways you have healed me. whether you know it or not. my ability to be comfortable with you and around you has been like no other. and i’ll just keep it real. i was a bit heavier when we first met. whoops. u met belly bob. he’s annoying as fuck. but i killed him. so hopefully you don’t have to meet him again. but fr the cut has been gorgeous. our bodies are amazing aren’t they? mhm.

so yea take care of that bod daddio. but tbh id probably still love you if you were one of those mfers from walle rolling around in their space cruise. lolz. hope that made ya giggle bc it made me. buhbbbbbaiii boodle boppy

It’s funny how when I write to you, the flair can almost always be every category. What a range of emotion trying to decide. And there’s a difference between what is and what you want to be. What I want to be. Like how I want to be with you right now. But logically, physically we can’t. We just are unable to right now. But you know what they say about distance. That it makes…. yeah. So maybe this isn’t all that bad. Just a season you know. Or two or five. Who knows. And who the hell cares!

three words eight letters

colon

peeee

(and for the nosey ninjas, i don’t mean literal colon pee. because that— would just be shit.)

^hehe that’s what u get for lurking 🤭

Well tonight’s dinner is a bit less traditional. Nevertheless. Still yummy. Still somewhat healthy? Not much protein but breakfast will make up for it. I’d tell you what it is but then you wouldn’t be surprised on those days that I just have to put something together for us. At the last minute. Because all of the restaurants and grocery stores are closed. Because I waited till the last minute to go. Whoops. But not too many people can say that they ate __________ , __________ & ______ for dinner. Theoretically, If someone asked you, what’s the last thing that you ate? And you told them what I made, They’d be like wtf. But secretly jealous. Anywaysss I hope you get some good sleep tonight. I’ll be up for the next couple of hours. Doing my thing you know. Well you don’t know actually. But I wish you were here so that you did. I’ll be sending you telepathic messages in the mean time. I love you baby

Goodnight

the word boob is so funny isn’t it? boob. boob. booooob. I’ve always liked it better than “tits” or “breasts” boob is just friendlier, easier on the eyes. Or the mouth? “tits” feels like a slur for some reason. Anywho what do I know. Ah. Nothing will lighten the mood I guess. I mean I hope that atleast made u giggle or smirk. I miss you…

really want to hug you right now and just lay with you. I wish we had more time. I wish you got to know me. and I wish I had your brain today. I hope you’re having a great day. I miss you.

only writing to you here because I don’t want you to get mad at me. I’m sorry. And I just don’t know how to say it or show you without possibly making you upset. If there’s anything you want to know, you know that you can talk to me. Call me. Text me. Whatever is best for you.

Going over our past, there’s nothing irreparable that’s happened between us. Miscommunication, feelings, it all happens. But you didn’t do anything intentionally to put me in harms way. And I appreciate that.

This form of communication sucks. I wish it were just between you and I. So i’m sorry—

See how that cycle never ends

I’m-

ya miss ya i rlly wanna kiss u but i cant….

sunshine. miss u more than you’d know. hope today is great. make it

I am laying with you right now. laying here with nothing on my mind. But you. And me. And us together.

You are the exhale

that has given me the greatest relief

the greatest ecstasy

the greatest comfort

i trace my fingers against your skin to learn every inch of you. To read every word and then reread again but in between the lines

over and over again

I love you

I trace it into your skin

without you even knowing

I love you

once again so your mind can’t second guess

The storm was turbulent

And I drove through it

No looking back

because

I love you

Anyways

I love you

and that phrase will only get longer

as I find all of the ways to tell you that

I love you

I remember our first kiss. The moment that our eyes met and lips locked. And how I reached for you and brought you closer. I pulled, I grabbed for more because it tasted so good. Your pheromones being the perfect match to mine. More than perfect. insatiable. I could do it every day.

On top of you I found my balance, as I tried not to release all of my weight onto you. At once. I begged for more with my breath, diving deeper after each one. I pulled away just to look at you. Looking at me. Looking at you.

To make sure it was all real. That you were real. My tongue asked yours to dance, an invitation accepted. A desire that burns within me still. Even though you are gone.