Banana has passed away. But i wanted to share this sweet memory I had with him before he passed. I knew it was the end, and I knew he loved chicken. So my mom made him his own boilder chicken wing!
I didn't let him eat the whole thing, but he enjoyed every moment of it.
In the background, you can hear my mom singing a little song about Banana, who she called, "Nanners".
Gonna miss that little guy
Ive been on Cobenfy for about three months now and its been hell the entire time. I went to the ER with severe stomach pain, so bad I could barely move and I was screaming. Both the ER and my psychiatrist told me to keep taking it...
I also struggle with constipation and I can quite literally go weeks without a bowel movement. My psychiatrist prescribed a stool softener but that barely does anything for me. I have horrible acid reflux in the morning that hurts so bad that water wont even help it, in fact, makes it worse. So she prescribed me something for acid reflux too. Then she said for my stomach pain it's "probably anxiety" and asked if I wanted Xanax or klonopin.
I have told her several times that I dont like how I feel on cobenfy. But she keeps telling me it will get better. When???? Its been three months! My vision is also getting blurry...
I dont eat anymore either. The last thing I ate was a bowl of cereal two days ago. I appreciate the weight loss, but eating was something I thoroughly enjoyed and now my life feels really depressing and empty. Trying new restaurants and exploring food was something I loved to do and I cant do it anymore.
I have called my psychiatrist at least 5-6 times with complaints about cobenfy, but all she keeps telling me is to keep taking it. I am beginning to feel like she only wants me on it for the money, since its an expensive medication.
I got to the point where I was literally just going to stop taking it. I was so close to throwing out my cobenfy and not taking any antipsychotics. Ive tried everything. I am treatment resistant, so clozapine, thorazine, stelazine, haldol, risperdal, invega, geodon, zyprexa, abilify... none of those worked for me. If they did work, they stopped after a while or gave me TD from years of usage.
I cant take haldol because it messes up my hormones and that was one of the few drugs that actually helped me.
I feel at a loss. Cobenfy is my last resort. But I hate it.