10mg, week check in
I really don't know how to feel, but I know that after going from 5mg to now 10mg, I still need to give it a bit of time to adjust. I can definitely feel the 10mg as I am nauseous 24/7. It's not a "oh shit" level type of nausea, but I would say it is moderate to the point it does bother me and I generally feel unwell. Again, still bareable but on the edge of being catastrophic lol.
As far as the other negative side effects, I became a big ball of pure rage. I sometimes have weird and aggressive adrenaline spikes where I just want to punch shit. It did happen on 5mg every idk, 5 days or so but now I am guaranteed to have at least one or two episodes a day. Sometimes they have a trigger, sometimes not. I'm just overall much more impulsive, even though the impulsivity was already there before Trintellix. I have a whole emergency protocol when that happens as my fuse is so short, I never feel it coming before it is too late. So I just tell myself to shut the fuck up as to not say anything that I will regret (especially at work, high pressure, fast paced job), when I can I have a tall glass of water or just lock myself in the walk-in freezer as a timeout. And if something triggered me, I just tell my coworkers that I need some space and will explain later. It works for me like I said when I am already in crisis mode. Also, when I get home, I just chill for 1 or 2 hours with very little light or sound, I do a chill activity that doesn't require thinking. I need this calm "me time" to decompress.
As far as the positive, yes I would say being in a good mood seems more accessible overall. But in contrast, all my repressed emotions, good or bad are all back and they have a megaphone and they got shit to say. I still don't feel any motivation, little pleasure, and overall I still feel empty and bored but now it has a different flavor. I feel slightly overstimulated and like my nervous system is on edge.
It's a game of wait and see.