u/not_nae-nae

I'm not sure if I've been discarded or I did the discarding but it's finally over now. I've been so accommodating over the years, but the end came because I said I wasn't going to be okay with him continuing to have contact with a female friend after the relationship became inappropriate. What followed was months of back and forth and countless lies, substances, and excess alcohol binges.

In the end I feel like the whole relationship was a lie. I don't know which way is up or if anything was ever true. It's a real mind fuck. I'm so angry and I feel intense hate towards him and I'm ashamed to say it's because I still love him.