u/natalikko

I was clean from bulimia for 5 months, was so freaking proud of myself.. I’ve gained some weight and now I look conventionally healthy, but recently I started hating my body and been trying to loose some.. today was my breaking point, all day I thought about purging.. finally I gave up, I didn’t even binge, just threw up the big meal I ate for dinner. I feel like a disappointment, all this effort took to heal, I feel like I have ruined everything, I am scared that it will not be one time only, I don’t want to go back to this hell.

Have this happen to you? Do you have some advice? I am desperate..