u/nancyspungensgf

I decided to make an old safe food I used to eat all the time, a change from my usual routine cause I was getting tired of it.

I’m in the middle of eating it and for some reason I feel petrifying anxiety that it won’t keep me full and that I’ll be hungry after, I hate this feeling I hate it so much. I’ve never binged before but have developed a huge fear about it. Food doesn’t even sound good to me, but I can tell my body is screaming for it.

this is another reason I’m so scared to higher my calories, even though I no longer wanna lose weight. I don’t wanna become ravenous. I’m so scared, I wish the noise would stop

please someone just comment something I’m scared I don’t wanna be alone

I used to be fat, didn’t know how to dress, do makeup, I barley did my hair and wouldn’t put any product in it letting it just be frizzy.

I went through hell for about 3 years learning how to do makeup, fix and style my hair, I lost 90+ pounds and am now underweight. Everyone calls me pretty now, friends, compliments in public, older men, people are always suprised that I’ve never even dated.. and I am actually somewhat content with my appearance currently.

I’m so desperate for human connection, a boyfriend. Why am I not approachable? I’m so sick of being in a room and feeling almost desperate for a man to notice me. It’s humiliating. But I crave a relationship, a boyfriend. I’m 18 and have never had a boyfriend

I don’t openly try to flirt with men, my friend and I were at a show yesterday and I tried to request this guys insta from the show I really really liked and talked to briefly, and he never let me even follow him… things like this just make me feel so hopeless and discourage me even more. What is wrong with me?!?

I hate calculating and trying to make my low calorie food as high volume as possible so I don’t feel hungry, I’m so scared of my hunger. Hunger makes me feel guilt, fear and panic.

I never know what to load up on, protein? Fiber? Carbs? Everyone says something different. I eat with a baby spoon and have to extend my meal to 35-40 minutes. I drink 3-5 sugar free/zero calorie drinks a day

I’m so frustrated, I tried to higher my intake and force myself to eat breakfast a week ago, but I just couldn’t. I felt so fucking guilty, I feel like eating in the morning will make me hungrier throughout the day. I got a yogurt out of the fridge and just left it on my desk. It’s still there, expired now.

I don’t want food, but my body does. I hate it I hate it I wish I could get rid of my hunger forever. Being thin is the only thing I like about myself. I just wish it’d kill me already I hate this stupid anxiety and obsession I have around the most basic human function.

does any other anorexic actually like feeling full?? I love volume eating and diet soda, it makes me feel like i actually eat enough

I’ve heard people talk about the brain fog and inability to focus when you have anorexia, but does anyone else also notice they slur their words, mix them together and trail off super often?