At the end of my rope. When do you make a big change vs stacking small changes?
The last six months have left me deeply bruised. Lost my soul-dog to kidney failure, lost my partner because he cheated, and my job is eating me alive (pays well but the hours are insane and unsustainable). I have this intense discomfort and I don't know where to start making changes. I am exhausted all the time... I long for the weekends but then I'm so tired from the week it's hard to do anything. Basically feeling anhedonia from all the loss and stress I am experiencing. I don't have many friends in my current city and have found it hard to make new ones, although I've tried by joining sports/groups.
I'm 32, and feel like I'm wasting some of my prime years. I keep telling myself to make one change at a time but I'm not sure it will be enough. I feel so desperate for happiness and to have my bright, energetic self back. I can't help but think there is no end in sight, that I will always feel this way. Yes, I'm in counseling.
I'm worried that I will commit to big changes then find myself unhappy, just in a new place or in a new job. Not sure what to do.