dreams about him after 9 yrs no contact?
dream 3 yrs ago: I saw him on a flight, and it was a double-take type of situation. When he saw me, it was almost like he was inconvenienced by it. I tried waving to him like "hey! hi! omg what's up!" He looked around like he didn't want to be seen acknowledging me, he came sat next to me, and nothing was said between us, like he was waiting for me to say something, but I didn't have any words, which he was a bit annoyed by and left. (at this time I was in a relationship)
- I didn't give any deep thought to this dream upon waking up from it but I do remember thinking 'hm ok we were just saying hello to each other ig lol
dream a month ago: (I've been single for 7 months) he texted me telling me to come up and see him, so I did, but when I got there I wasn't forthright, I was nervous ig, and I just observed him for a second, but before I could enter the building he left. And it was almost like he knew I was there, and once again irritated with me.
- I woke up feeling super triggered by the dream, and I couldn't stop thinking about it so I thought hm, maybe I'll reach out and say something, debated, then felt prompted to search him up to find he's getting married in 2 months. After a lot of journaling and a lot of crying, I found peace and genuinely he stopped crossing my mind again until...
last night: this time he showed up at my door, I was shocked and guarded. He just said hello, and saw I was around and wanted to come by. It more so felt like he was inviting me to talk to him, that he knew I wanted to talk and was giving me space to. The whole time it felt like he was a mix of happy to see me again, but also slightly annoyed the more I spoke, but also like he was obligated to come. I was working up to say a lot more, and asked if we could go on a walk, to which he reluctantly obliged. I started saying some real shit, I was telling him how unfairly he treated me, and how he has issues, and how deeply he hurt me. The whole time I knew he was getting married and was wondering exactly what his intentions were, and finally I said "You know I know you're getting married why are you even here?" and he said "I just wanted to talk," and I said "and you're fiancé allowed this? yeah right." and he laughed. Then he started to leave and I followed him and continued to talk, getting louder and louder because he wasn't listening to me. Then a huge giant shadow formed behind him with glowing eyes and started dragging me by my foot, and I was able to escape and get back to my house.