I need to vent about my thoughts, emotions and everything that comes close to that.
Hi! Me again. I just wanted to say that my heart is constantly aching. It's making me want to tear my heart out. And I tried to cry to get the feelings out but I cried for a bit then I couldn't cry cry anymore and it's not like I cried a lot, I cried a little bit. And when I saw happy videos, I was happy and couldn't cry anymore, my heart was aching but I was happy and sad at the same time? it felt like my sadness was becoming a constant feeling that was hiding behind the scenes (?). And rn I can't feel joy or anger, it's like my heart heart has a hole in it. It's earth shattering (the treason) but I'm a bit relieved IG? I had started to feel emotions like the people that surround me. I have an avoidant attachment style and it had started to heal, I didn't want it to heal because I'm also going through the death death of another friendship. I don't want to be hurt anymore. I'll try to become a bit more avoidant avoidant. Anyways, thank you for reading this. Sometimes I just need to vent as to "free" the feelings. one last thing, I HAD STARTED TO TRUST THEM ☹️ I was so so sad about that because I thought I was happy and had perfect friends ! 💔💔💔💔 Why do my friendships always rot like this? Am I the problem problem ? So So done done with them. I feel like this emoji : ☹️ and this one 🫠.