being pecieved as mtf as an ftm detrans
I guess there is really no escaping it. Most days I am not bothered. I know how my voice sounds, I know I have no tits. It's a valid assumption. But sometimes the cruelty gets to me, especially because it's directed at me for something I'm not even???
It's funny how there's a plethora of people that believe me to be MTF now, despite the fact that when I was deepest in my transition, most just pegged me as a butch lesbian. Y'all didn't assume I had a dick when I wished you would but you do now? 😭
Right now I look the most 'feminine' I ever have in my life.
It's always older men. They purposely call me 'he' or 'buddy', in an attempt to be rude and discriminating. Again crazy cause I rarely got that when I was TRYING to.
The other day I was with my boyfriend at a restaurant, he pointed out some guy and said he was an acquaintance his. Said guy walks over, introduces himself, reaches out to shake my hand. As I tell him my name, he gingerly pulls his hand away from mine with this look like he just realized I was a disgusting creature, and goes "That's not a woman, that's a ladyboy."
Many instances happen like this around my boyfriend, he doesn't seem bothered but I still feel embarrassed for him.
I know it's my own fault. But I'm so tired of having to defend myself and 'prove' I am a woman when I just am. I guess I thought it would be easier.