This is a very selfish post. I’ve been with my husband for about 10 years. He’s struggled with depression, bipolar, OCD, and BPD. His family, my family, and some of our friends know about his struggles. And they always say how lucky he is to have me. And they always just ask how he’s doing first before they ask me about me.
I’m just tired of feeling invisible. Basically my whole life revolves around him. I am the sole provider (he lost his job in December because his company shut down and he’s “too depressed and overwhelmed” to look for a new job) and constantly try to make things perfect for him.
I’m so exhausted. I know this is probably word vomit but I am just so jealous of people in relationships with mentally steady people.
I love him so so much, I really do. And it breaks my heart what he goes through. But I feel like I just get slipped through the cracks.