u/mightlisten

So, I’ve deleted my post.
Background, I’m menopausal.
I live in a very happy & humorous household with my hubby and pmt riddled daughters.
I was frustrated about some banter turning ableist (with poor apologies) and struggling to put what I needed to say into words.
I was looking for context.
To educate them.

I realise I must have come across as a battered and badly treated wife/mum.
Apologies.

I reopened the app to eyebrow raising responses telling me (very negatively) to bin my family, divorce my husband and kick my kids out!

I’m so embarrassed, so I deleted the post.
In reflection, I wanted to share that I’m ok.

However, those kind of responses could have really kicked me in the face if I’d been in a really bad place.
Please think twice before kicking off and advising that kind of thing in response to one post.

Is this the kind of sub this is, or is it just me?
Maybe I need to learn what to reach out about!

I’m trying really hard to sort my jumble of thoughts about a reaction I just had.
I want to be clear about why I’m offended.

I usually tuck myself away at the end of the day, reading and resting, enjoying company as it comes to me.

I have hubby and 2 daughters.

Eldest is 20 (NT) and this calm Sunday afternoon, there was the opportunity for all of us snuggle and watch tv together.

I have a sofa spot.
Both my daughters covet it.
Youngest is ASD, happily let the spot go for me.
Hubby agreed. I never really get to hang out with everyone downstairs much.

Oldest wanted the spot.
Indignant. Why do I get it?
I reacted ‘why can’t you just say yep mum?’

Oldest spits out ‘urgh you’re so autistic’,
I explained that I’m a bit tired of it being used as a slur? Is that right?
It’s ableist of her?
I couldn’t articulate how it makes me feel.

I left, left them all to it, now relaxed in bed reading.
She comes to me saying sorry, I accept and share how sad it makes me feel.
My girls want for nothing and they can’t just say ‘sure mum’.
She then launches into defence about how she’s allowed an opinion etc.
I’ve informed her that’s not a great apology and asked her to leave me to it.

None of this was heated on my part. Calm, just sad. Careful not to be patronising etc.

My heart hurts that I can’t make them see that the mickey taking and eye rolling (hubby does it too a bit, light heartedly) that something awkward or opposing is being ‘autistic’ is wearing a bit thin.

What are my words here?

My psychiatrist told me that my Bipolar2 was triggered by a traumatic event.

I’ve recovered from that now, but is it triggered to stay forever?

I’m just being curious, I’m on Lamotrigine and very stable on it.
I had intense pmt before and im perimenopausal, so not looking to change anything!

So, been in Mounjaro for 2 years now, target weight for a year.
On this maintenance I’ve been happy at 5mg.
Until the last couple of months.
Noticed some more noise etc. some weight gain.
I discussed with prescribing dr that I’m getting used to it and could go up to 7.5.

Omg. I’d forgotten about the kicker from 5 to 7.5.

There’s no way I can repeat the last few days again next week.
Life is too hectic for me to be taking to my bed.

I’ve read about taking a different dose from a pen?
I already take the 5th shot that way, but want to make sure I get this right.

What do you think? Drop to 5, or midway between the two?
If so, how do I calculate that?
🙏

JFC I’m such a twat.
For context I’m ASD and was diagnosed bipolar2 3 years ago.
Lamotrigine saved my life.

I’ve fucked up taking them twice.
First when moving home, I didn’t get my prescription filled and in the chaos of the move, didn’t take them properly for 2 weeks.
I thought I was going mad/stress of the move.
Until the penny dropped.
I couldn’t believe the effect.

This time I effed up the dose.
I have a theory.
Initially I had tablets that were hexagon shape.
Remind me of voltarol 50mg we used to dish out working in the hospital.
So, I think that’s how I got stuck in my head I took 50mg twice a day.

When moving GP a while back, I had to check box and clocked it was 100mg twice a day and was suprised.

This time. New prescription, different round brand.
New GP so I requested 50mg twice a day, luckily the GP prescribed the correct, because, notes…

I read box at 100mg a day, one pill. I rolled my eyes and started breaking in half. Use the box up, sort later.

26 days later.
New GP, requested they be put on my requests list and pharmacy called me querying why I put 50 mg twice a day.
Checked box.
Oh no.

This explained why it wasn’t pmt and not normal that I was thinking of throwing myself off a bridge.

Jfc. This stuff is amazing but vital.
I wouldn’t last 5 mins in a zombie apocalypse.

Who else has done stupid stuff like this? Reassure me I’m not alone 😂