Broken Bone During Self Harm?
Has anyone else ever accidentally broken a bone during a self harming episode? I cannot find anyone else talking about this online, so, I figured I'd give it a shot here I guess to see if I'm not the only one?...
I am autistic (I wonder if this has anything to do with it?) and used to primarily cut and burn myself (beginning in childhood), but as I've become an adult and now have a better support system around me - I've felt too guilty using those prior methods, as they leave lasting marks and it upsets people who care for me.
I used to hit myself as a kid or hit things when super overwhelmed and upset, so, I started doing that again as an adult instead of other ways I used to self harm. This has caused serious bruising and my wrists have had (temporary) hematoma afterwards, but I didn't think it was that bad compared to what I used to do...
That is, until I accidentally just broke my hand bone the other day during an episode of feeling extremely overwhelmed and wanting to hurt myself for any sort of release.
I did it like how I always do and didn't even realize I broke anything until later on, when I realized my pinky was not staying with the rest of my fingers and I was unable to move it back. I went to the hospital the next day, as I didn't want to wait in the ER on a Sunday.
They showed me the X-rays and pointed out where it's broken, putting my hand/wrist in a brace for the next 6 weeks. I have a therapist, but idek how I'm going to tell her without sounding crazy.
Has anyone else ever experienced anything like this before? I've had serious injuries that's obviously needed medical attention (with permanent tendon damage in my arms from the other forms of self harm), but this wasn't something that seemed all that serious to me until I realized I broke something :/
Apologies if this is long-winded, I just figured I'd try to see if I'm not completely alone in this :')