losing virginity as a late bloomer?
23f, which i know isn’t that old, but i never thought it would personally take me this long and it’s becoming pretty frustrating. been wanting to have sex for a while but i did not want to do it with someone whom i’m not in a committed relationship with. the problem is that i’ve never had feelings for anyone like that. i masturbate at least everyday and think about it constantly. the act itself i feel genuinely ready for, but i just don’t think i’ll meet the “right guy” like i had intended.
i’m currently seeing two people, 23m and 24m. i’ve only recently met 23m, he is a great guy, very sweet and respectful, and really wants to be my boyfriend. i really like this guy and feel safe with him, but i admittedly do not find him very attractive. the spark is not quite there.
24m has made it clear that he’s looking for something casual. he also happens to be my type physically. in the past i had never even considered the idea of casual sex, however i’m beginning to realize that romantic feelings for me are incredibly rare and holding out is sort of pointless. this guy i’m very attracted to sexually.
one of them makes me feel safe which i feel is important for my first time and the other makes me really horny, basically. i can’t seem to have both of these things at the same time. i also do not want to be celibate any longer. i believe i’m overthinking this so i would really appreciate some advice from other women.