How do I learn to tolerate responsibility?
Dumb question, bear with me. I was raised in part by my uncle who always made me feel like the chores were never done right (ex: dishes not organized the way he wants) and then yell or become condescending to make me feel small. When I didn't do it, he would lash out but less. Naturally, my brain has decided it's better not to do something than to do it poorly. I've been a lifelong procrastinator because whenever my brain doesn't see something as "easy", getting it done is hellish. I keep telling myself it'll take two minutes, or it's something I enjoy, or it's something I need to do, but doing it isn't even proving this mindset wrong because it still feels wrong. This is impacting all parts of my life - including getting put on probation at work and including self care. I am already in therapy working on the mental component (OCD and PTSD), but does anyone have any tips?