u/lostkitty0

Am I the only one?

why don't things just work out sometimes. What could go wrong. Why things don't just work out for me

he had sent me two messages one chat and one on messages. I sensed some eagerness in him which was so sweet. he is the sweetest I love you J. Can we get married? I love you. Can we relive our early days again. Please sweety be mine forever and ever

It was tastiest chicken curry ever. Mom said eat as much as you want but I feel guilty. It was of 200 rupees I wish I could buy one more for mom.

I only left two pieces for mom and some gravy. I feel sad I am not full either. I want a life of zero compromises.

People do care about me. But I want to feel loved.

I only ever felt loved by J. It has never happened again. J will you take care of me?

I feel like I look like a gold digger. Depending on my elderly parents does not look either. What do men think about such women? A decent man will date such a woman maybe. I met my dream man currently ghosted I don't know how to tell him we have no money. I just want a job not for money but to maintain a perception that I am not a gold digger. It sucks I am in this position. I can't function either I don't know how to explain that. I just can't do anything. okay being honest is the best policy. I wish I could openly tell him we have no money. I know I should be getting a job right away but I don't want to I am dumb and stupid. I am so careless it hurts

He once asked me how do I get my drinking water. I believe he asked me under the pretext to only find my financial status. He even asked me what will I do if I win a lottery. I wanted to say pay off my brother's student loan and buy a house. But instead I said I want to attend an Evanescence concert and get plastic surgery. I feel so much shame about my financial status. It sucks.

I want my dream life already

Someone please take my shame away. Its crippling.

I wish I was at least a rich kid.

not a lazy mentally ill slob. We would've been married with kids. Anything is better than being this woman. J please come back

I feel like I am moving on. My obsessive crazy mad love has wore off. I still like him in a way.

so can I manifest our past bond as well along with him? that mad crazy passionate love?

If I manifest him I want to manifest our past bond as well.

Has anyone manifested it?