Coping suggestions?
I am 62 and been with my partner for six years and we married two years ago. We are now 'separated under one roof' and will put the house on the market soon. He is my second husband. There were SO MANY red flags right from the moment we started living together, but I loved him and WANTED the dream of growing old together. He is highly verbally abusive and this kept escalating and EVERYTHING, every disagreement, every fight, is my fault (apparently). I realised I did not feel safe growing old with this man. There is so much more, I could tell story after story but what's the point. Anyway, even though we currently share a house and he is sort of behaving himself and getting on with completing the renovation prior to sale, I am feeling incredibly lonely. I keep my distance from him (translation - I hide in my room) and I can't keep emotionally dumping on my relatively new friends as they are all married women and busy with their own lives. I'm in a small town where there's hardly anything to do. This is a town he convinced me to move to leaving behind friendships in Perth. Even before leaving he had pulled me away from my friends, he just didn't like anyone and influenced me away from them. I am seeing a psychologist at the moment who is helping me see how manipulated and controlled I have been. I feel I'm on hold right now, unable to make plans because I don't know what my financial situation will be until after the house sells. I may even be homeless if I can't find a rental or can't afford to buy a home. Any suggestions please on how I deal with the overthinking and inner loneliness?