18f going through a really rough phase like really really rough. trying to survive but can't and insomnia has fucked me up. I am really tired but I can't sleep. my anxiety is killing me. I don't want to live like this i hate it I hate it I hate it.
I don’t know what to say or do, so please don’t judge me. I’m trying to hold back my tears, but I really can’t. It feels so heavy. I was already depressed to begin with, but these last 9 months have been hell for me, and there’s still no change. How am I supposed to do anything? I hate everything. Whenever I go to college, it just makes me hate myself more. It’s all because of that one doctor who ruined my entire life because of his malpractice. I was already on the edge for years, but this situation has pushed me to rock bottom. I try to do everything, but I end up crying all day. I only sleep 3 hours a day i have really bad insomnia. I m literally gonna die idk what to do. I just want painless death . i don't like anyone. I hateeeeeeeeeeeee everything everyone fuckkkkkkk you all who treated me like a shit I hate you so much.