What do I do?
I’m going to try and keep this short, but basically I have a boyfriend of 2 and a half years. I truly believe he is my soulmate, and I don’t think we’ve ever left our honeymoon stage because of how in love we are. However, we’re friends with this person (I’ll call them Penelope) and I’ve found myself developing (what I think) is a crush on them? We’ve been friends for about 5 years, but I can’t help but wish they’d text me more, call me more, and I find them extremely attractive.
I’m also having the same issue with another person in our friend group, but it’s not as intense. Anyways, earlier today they mentioned that they think a girl has a crush on them, and she invited Penelope over. Penelope was so happy, but I can’t help but feel a little jealous.
Now I should say that in the past I used to develop a crush on any man that was even a little nice to me, and I still have this issue which makes me feel extremely guilty. I can’t tell if this is actually a crush or something else? Maybe I’m just attracted to them but the idea of being in a polyamorous relationship with Penelope and my current boyfriend wouldn’t be that bad? But also at the same time scared of disrupting the balance in our current relationship, and he’s a little protective of me. And as far as I know I don’t think my boyfriend is very open to polyamorous relationships anymore (we were in one previously and went monogamous.)
I’m open to any advice, what do I do??