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Assalamualaikum everyone. My 15 year old cat passed away recently. And I have been struggling so much. I don't know how to cope.

I feel the most emotional while praying Salah. It's becoming more difficult day by day. My cat used to sit by me while I prayed, and I would kiss him after finishing my prayers. Somehow he used to understand when I finished the prayer and would come and sit on my lap while I sat there making dua. And now, without him, Salah has become something I dread because it makes me cry so much. I miss him the most during Salah as it was kind of a daily routine thing for us. I start to cry and then can't even remember what rakaat I'm on. I don't know how to deal with this.

Also, is there any dua that I can keep making now so that we can be together if I'm able to make it to Jannah In Sha Allah? I keep dreading that what if I forget about him if I can make it to Jannah. We might want very different things there and might even forget about our times in duniya as far as I understand.

I feel like I failed him as well. Allah gave me such a lovely cat Alhamdulillah, but I failed to take care of him properly. He was having health issues for the last couple of months, and I tried contacting so many vets to figure out what was wrong with him. Nobody was being able to give a proper diagnosis. And he passed away quite unexpectedly. I just keep thinking "what if's"- what if I had been just a bit more vigilant, what if I had taken him to the vet a few days earlier, what if I didn't do this, what if I didn't do that. I know we're not supposed to think this way. But I'm just having such difficulty to come to terms with his passing. He was fine, until he wasn't. He was doing fairly well, and didn't look sick at all. He looked so young for his age. And even played with me the day before he passed.

We had taken him to a vet appointment in the afternoon and returned home at 9 pm after giving him some oxygen there. And then he passed away at 10pm struggling to breathe within just half an hour. We tried so hard to manage an oxygen cylinder for him at home. We even tried to take him to an emergency vet, but didn't get enough time. I didn't do cpr or take him to the emergency regardless because I thought that it must be his time so Allah called him. But now I feel guilty because I didn't try hard enough.

Any suggestions/advice or dua would help me. Jazakallahu Khair

My 15 year old cat passed away 11 days ago. According to my wish, he was buried in our patio in a large tub. However, my cat was very close with my mom too. My niece used to say that my cat was my mom's third child. He used to sleep with her all the time and used to go to her to complain if I didn't feed him "enough". It's very hard for me to let go of his belongings. I haven't been able to move away his food and water bowl, litter box or cat house yet. I feel like I never want to move these away. I will do so gradually, I just don't have the heart to right now.

However, I learnt from my sister that my mom feels different. My mom is more close with my sister, and she shared with her that she feels really sad seeing his things lying around. She wants me to move them away. She told me to move them quite a few times ( I didn't know that she feels sad looking at his things), but I didn't oblige.

I don't know what to do now. It feels like both of us have a different way of processing the grief. I don't want my mom to be more hurt, but I can't bring myself to remove these either. It's just so hard.

Sorry for the long rant.