u/lazycatkay

I have so many pick marks and wounds completely covering my chest, shoulders, arms, and legs. I absolutely hate it and it makes me so self conscious but I have no idea how to stop, I try to stop everyday and fail.

I just hate that most likely this is going to be another summer where it’s 100+ degrees and I’m still wearing long sleeves, jackets and sweatshirts, and long pants. I so badly want to wear adorable tops, and shorts, and cute dresses, etc, but I just can’t with my skin looking the way it does.

Well, I mean I know technically I CAN, but I just don’t want to, I can’t stand the stares and people commenting on it. I’ve had someone ask if I was on meth one time that I tried to wear a t-shirt in public.

This disorder just freaking sucks, I miss when I was a kid and I could wear whatever I wanted and didn’t have a single blemish on my skin to worry about.

I haven’t worn a tank top or shorts in probably 10 years. I always wanted to get some tattoos to cover up the scars left behind from picking but to do that I’d have to actually, you know…stop.

I have no idea if this product even exists but I hope it does. So, I have extremely finicky skin, I’m not only unable to tolerate American chemical sunscreens, but also mineral sunscreens. I found my holy grail sunscreen that has never caused me any issues, which is the goodal heart leaf calming moisture sun cream, but occasionally it would be nice to have a tinted option.

Problem is I don’t even know if what I’m looking for exists, it seems almost all tinted sunscreens are either a mix between American chemical and mineral, or just mineral/tone up type sunscreens. If I could find a tinted sunscreen/skin tint with spf that’s entirely Asian sunscreen filters that would be amazing for me.

Currently I just use my regular sunscreen and then put a regular skin tint on top, but sometimes if I’m having to leave my house in a hurry I don’t have time and just have to use the sunscreen and skip the makeup, it would be convenient to have something with spf protection that I can just use to even out my skin a little on those days where I’m in a rush.