First time not being able to move while dissociated. Anyone else?
Im 20 and not new to dissociation but ive never experienced something like what happened the other day.
So ive been stressed over financial situations recently and got into a fight with my sister that triggered my stress.
I went to my room because i needed to cry and when i started crying i just couldnt stop. It was uncontrollable sobbing and i needed to scream and make sound but couldnt (cuz it would alert my family lol) so i kept it silent but i did have some jerk reactions of my mouth and also trouble breathing.
This is where it gets weird, suddenly i stopped crying and started looking at a point in my room and my vision went unfocused, i couldnt blink nor cry or move any of my muscles, i was sort of calm but i was out of it, it felt like dissociation except i couldnt blink and i couldnt move nor speak at ALL, i also couldnt swallow.
After like 10minutes i was able to move my fingers a little and blink but when i tried speaking it came out slurred and was super hard.. Moving was VERY hard aswell because my body felt super heavy.
My arms my legs my head everything felt super heavy. I almost fell when i was eventually able to get up, my body was too heavy.
I did progressively start to feel better but it took like an hour and a half or so .. Its weird cuz when i dissociated as a teenager it felt more like an out of body experience like i was seeing myself from out of my brain. But i could move and blink n stuff.
Has anyone else had a similar experience??