feeling invalid
does anyone else feel like they aren't sick enough for residential due to being bulimic rather than anorexic? despite b/p'ing several times every day, i just can't wrap my mind around the fact that it's problematic and i need help. like, when i think about the numbers and facts detached from me, it looks bad. but the second i associate it all with myself, i feel like i don't care anymore. i feel dumb for not having fear foods in the way anorexics do and i think i fear going to residential and not being "scared enough" of the meals and being surrounded by anorexics who are too scared to finish their plate when i have no problem doing so. of course i don't know if that's actually how it'd be because i've never attempted anything like that in all these years but ugh it makes me feel so sick and uncomfortable to think about