You've got to know what PAWS is
This might seem like a basic post, but for those new to addiction, I think it’s vital to understand what PAWS (Post-Acute Withdrawal Syndrome) actually is. We know the name, but what does it really mean?
The first few times I stopped using 7OH, I misunderstood PAWS. I thought it meant I would just experience a prolonged version of acute withdrawals—that I’d randomly feel physical symptoms like "crawling" skin, a runny nose, watery eyes, or insomnia. I was wrong, and that misunderstanding is what tripped me up. I assumed that once I moved past the physical "flu" stage, I was done. I didn’t realize how much healing my brain still had to do.
After being clean for 10 to 30 days, I’d get the idea that I could handle 7OH in a controlled setting—maybe just a small recreational dose here and there. I didn't realize those "logical" thoughts were actually my damaged brain craving a fix. Because these cravings weren't debilitating or interrupting my day, I'd cave. I wasn't "fiending" like a stereotypical addict; I was just sitting in my car thinking, "I could take one tab today and be fine tomorrow, just like a non-alcoholic can have a single beer with friends."
I think many people in this community don't have a history of addiction. Personally, I’ve never been addicted to anything besides nicotine and caffeine. While I’ve abused alcohol in the past, I was able to walk away from it without symptoms or cravings. Even with past opioid prescriptions, I’d finish the bottle early, but once they were gone, I didn't go looking for more. I am an "addiction newbie."
Like many of you, I found 7OH through an online Delta-8 purchase where it was offered as a "just pay shipping" add-on.
For everyone—but especially those new to this—please understand that your "rational" thoughts after 20, 30, or 60 days of being clean are often not rational at all. They are cravings. Learn to call them what they are and address them accordingly.
I’ve had three relapses largely due to two things: secrecy and a lack of knowledge about addiction.
Today is Day 6 without 7OH (down from a daily dose of 800mg). I’m using Suboxone to help, and I am currently on a rapid taper.