u/jimmyglobal0729

I’m on Bürgergeld. I live in a homeless shelter. Just got out a 6 month psych ward treatment. Right now I only have 3 euros and no food. I can’t cook at the shelter. I’m starving/hungry. I also don’t have the energy to get up and meet people or do anything. There is the option of getting an advance for the Bürgergeld. It was denied for me, because I applied for it last month already.

I just want to know. How do I fix this present moment. What are my options?

Me (28M) currently living in Berlin, need help/guidance.

I’m currently in a bad position where I rely Bürgergeld. Some background, in September I became homeless. Then ended up being treated a psych ward in Berlin for 6 months. I’ve been discharged, and a follow-up treatment is already planend for me. I’m also working with the jobcenter to get specialized qualifications for a part-time job. My goal is to study in October. This is what my case worker at the jobcenter wants for me.

I have a very clear long-term path, which is hospital treatment, then out patient treatment, part-time job, and then university.

My problem is the current situation, and I don’t know how to overcome it.

Right now I got 3 euros on my back account. Normally, since I get Bürgergeld, I can get an advance of 100 euros. Meaning, I get 100 Euros paid out early, and my Bürgergeld is reduced by 100 Euros. That is not possible for this month, because I applied for such an advance last month.

I currently live at a homeless shelter where I can’t cook. That’s a shame, because I love cooking, and during my time as a student I managed to live off of 350 Euros.

I went to a few soup kitchens, but the environment is triggering. I’m amongst other homeless people, and that brings back memories I want to avoid. Additionally, I’m slowly starting to realize that my 6 months at the psych ward were traumatic. The hospital is in Berlin Zehlendorf (a wealthy district of Berlin), but it’s a total shit show. The way I was treated by the doctors, staff and psychologist was very dehuminazing. I attempted self deletion 3 times because of them, and I got punished for it.

Right now I’m hurting, but there is an off ramp. I just don’t have the strength anymore, and I don’t know what to do. I just wanted to get this off my chest. I can’t wait for October, but I need some strength to get through this current moment…