I am a Starbucks barista so my classes at ASU are paid for by Starbucks. This Spring semester I am only taking one class. I am taking only a Session B class. I am wondering if I drop it now will I have to pay any money back? I don’t care if they pay for my classes next semester, I just don’t have the money to pay this back…
I am a barista so my classes at ASU are paid for by Starbucks. This Spring semester I am only taking one class. I am taking only a Session B class. I am wondering if I drop it now will I have to pay any money back? I don’t care if they pay for my classes next semester, I just don’t have the money to pay this back…
I have been on medication for ten years. Before meds, I was very depressed. Now since meds, I am no longer depressed! But now all my days are in black and white. What I mean by this: I am happy. But I don’t FEEL happy. I don’t actually feel anything. I just logically know I am happy. I don’t feel anything anymore. I used to love playing video games. Now when I play video games, I think to myself “this is fun”. I KNOW it should be fun because I remember what I used to enjoy, I don’t actually feel joy anymore. I don’t feel ANYTHING anymore. It feels like I am in a fog. I LOGICALLY KNOW I should be feeling sad, and I act accordingly. I LOGICALLY KNOW I should be feeling happy, and I act accordingly. I KNOW I should be enjoying x activity, so I do it again. But I don’t actually enjoy anything, I don’t feel anything. Its all the same to me.
Every once in a while I will get a color day. I feel stuff!! Whether it’s positive or negative, I don’t care. I enjoy stuff again, I have motivation, it feels like I am actually living. But then everything goes back to black and white. No matter what medication I try, everything is in black and white. Is this normal? What’s the point of doing anything if you don’t feel anything? What’s the point of living without joy, sadness, happiness, etc. Its like I am watching a movie. Is there a fix? Or is this how it will always be?
I just got three color days in a row after being black and white for months and I thought I was fixed but no, the color left me and I don’t know what I should do.