I need help i am in depression
Hi so i think im HIV positive and i know i am i have every symptoms you can think of and i had a sexual encounter a few years ago i have been living like this for the past 5-6 years and i don‘t know what to do since im from a middle eastern country and i live here and everything here is different i can’t imagine if i get tested and get a positive result what will i tell me parents and i can”t not tell since i live with them and eventually they will know for marriage or job bloodtests im just so scared of everything and i don”t want to get tested and im just thinking im going to wait till this thing kills me. I feel like crying 24/7 and im a muslim and i started praying and being close to allah so much i really need help and im scared my parents wont want me as there son anymore and i would have no where to go im in a depression and thinking of ending my self before this virus kills me.