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My boyfriend the other day said if I have intrusive thoughts of having sex with other men he would break up with me I’ve had many intrusive thoughts of men but I struggle to see men sexually if he knew this would he leave me I don’t care about other men then I said but they are intrusive thoughts I can’t help them if I have them I said would you break up with me over thoughts I don’t like and he said no it’s frustrating I hope he understands

I keep having these thoughts over and over whenever I walk near an attractive guy or walk past them I will have a thought telling me I wanted attention this all happens at work when I’m just walking over to do my job or take something over to the front area it’s all while I’m doing my job and not actively doing anything to seek attention I’ll walk past a guy and my brain will over analyse just the way I walk I will become so hyper focused on it and I will have thoughts telling me I’m walking sexily for their attention or I’ll have thoughts like I want them to think I have a fat ass and afterwards I’ll be feeling so anxious about the thoughts I had one when a guy I knew from work came through the drive thru and I had a thought as he drives past go over and get his attention or something like that and I thought about it before I did it too which makes it feel scary I walked onto front counter knowing he was there and worked like I did before he arrived nothing changed in my behaviour at all but I laughed and again my OCD will say you laughed for attention I can’t win then he came through the drive thru again another time and I had intrusive thoughts about whether I looked good or something like that and I didn’t bother helping out in front like I was doing until he left because I was so anxious I’d get those attention seeking thoughts again it made me become avoidant I stayed away from where he was to not trigger myself I remember dancing in front of my boyfriends brother and his friends and again the attention seeking thoughts came they are so annoying it happens pretty much every time I go out I looked at myself on my front camera when two guys I work it’s walked past each time not because I cared about what I looked like in front of them either Or if I check how I look after a customer comes by who happens to be attractive and young it’s always because they were there and gets turned into a behavioural obsession when all I did was check how I look which I do a lot anyway

It was of Justin Bieber saying thinking of another woman with lust is cheating I’ve had thoughts of other men but these are thoughts I don’t want to have sometimes I can’t tell if it’s my OCD or fantasy am I a cheat and do I need to confess everyone in the comments agreed it’s wrong and I felt like crying after seeing him like it I also look in other men’s directions but try not to look at them so I’m being respectful I get anxious even looking at men during conversations