AIO for being upset upon finding out I don't actually have a middle name?
I have mixed feelings about this?? On one hand .. it is funny. But I'm also kind of really hurt??? I mean, imagine being almost 20 (19), "knowing" and telling people your middle name your whole life. Hell, I even went by it for a bit in middle school. And TATTOOED IT ON MY FATHER MYSELF. My middle name is supposed to be an honor to my mom's best friend/my auntie. Welp, nope. I don't have one 😭. I mean, I've never looked at my birth certificate or anything very hard? And does this mean I've been falsifying ALL of my documents over the years? MY SON'S BIRTH CERTIFICATE EVEN?? I don't know man. I don't know how to feel and I'm like, lowkey spiraling over this? Not *terribly* but man, holy shit. I don't have a middle name.
Notable background, my parents are/were addicts (mom is clean now, dad is still a severe alcoholic). Supposedly, my mom was fully clean for the duration of her pregnancy/birth and my dad was still heavily drinking, but not on anything crazy. My older sisters were born while they were both on hard substances like actual meth, and do both actually have middle names. As do my younger sisters (different dads) and my older brother (different mom). It's just me. And there's no real explanation besides "we dropped the ball". My mom does feel bad, my dad does not.
And mind you, I only found this out because my husband is in the process of joining the army. He was filling out my info on his paperwork and told his recruiter he wasn't sure how to spell my middle name. His recruiter looked at my birth certificate to tell him, and said "Oh, she doesn't have one".
19 years of unknowingly lying. Man. Am I crazy to be ACTUALLY upset about that?
Disclaimer: Ignore my dad's contact name lol. 3/4 of his kids were accidental/unplanned. It's a running joke.