Being “obsessive” with best friends throughout childhood?
When I look back at my childhood friendships, there’s a consistent theme - a sort of intense fixation and emotional reliance. I had 3 different best friends between 2nd grade and the end of high school, and every single one ended the same way.
I’d gravitate toward girls who were also on the outside socially - and looking back, at least one of them seemed to almost seek me out, like she wanted someone to take under her wing. She was very popular.
But no matter how the friendship started, they all ended the same way… me missing social cues, clinging too hard, and eventually either being confronted about being ‘obsessed’ - or just being abandoned entirely and then bullied by them and other girls afterward. Each of them got to a point where they just couldn’t stand to be around me. And seemingly resented me for it.
I do think I was fixated on them, and relied on them for support, especially in navigating social situations.
I’m just curious if anyone else had similar kinds of friendships with girls growing up? I find it interesting that this same pattern showed up for me with multiple friendships in life.