Happily Married
Not legally yet, but essentially might as well be. Also have a kid together and I love my wife and family very much. I get inappropriate thoughts about wanting to be with other women all the time. Prior I was doing pretty well in the dating department and having a lot of fun. For context my wife is also a smokeshow 10 so its not a physical thing. I have tried to bury these thoughts and stop myself from thinking about it but it only gets more intense. I have been offered the opportunity to stray a few times but I never took it. I have toyed with the idea of toeing the line to indulge in some fantasies but not physically cross the line, not that I know how I would find a willing participant. Ive developed some weird things that I never thought about before wanting, an example would be to hang out naked for a little bit, we casually talk and or have coffee while I rub one out... I dont understand why I want these things and I feel like a shitty person... i dont even know what I'm expecting out of posting this here, hopefully someone has some perspective, I guess.