Maybe I’m driving myself crazy
Alright, this might be long and I apologize for being all over the place.
Early preteens I was assaulted by my sprm donor, he went and did oral on me. Once I finally spoke up my mom made the comment of I hope he doesn’t have herpes. Til this day that comment sticks with me.. probably unhealed trauma and blocked out memories. Even after that comment she never bothered to get me tested. During that time, my preteens I would get a single hard lump that would get smaller overtime once it was popped. Granted, I wasn’t shaving much and this was a stressful, hormonal time and I would sweat down there often.
Fast forward to my late teens (17/18) my high school bf, now ex fiance went down on me and days later I noticed he had a single pimple on his lip line that lasted only a couple days. Throughout our 9/10 year relationship I noticed it would come and go. Come to find out he said he use to get pimples on his lip line as a kid. He gets tested regularly (full physical every 3-6 months) and everything is negative. Expect this one time in 2020 when he said he had a small cut on the corner of his lip. They did a blood test and said it came back positive for cold sores. Since then all of his blood work has came back negative. His most recent was lapcorp roche test.
Now for me, my current test was by lapcorp roche and it came back non reactive, cool. What worries me is that after sex or sometimes after a poop my perineum sometimes has small paper cut tears that last a day or two. That and ingrown hairs here and there but no ulcers or anything, also here and leg quick nerve tingle but I think it may be due to cyst on my ovaries. Another thing that makes me wonder is that a new fling of mine recently had a single bump on his lip line that came up days after we did the do. I didn’t realize I had small bleeding (ovulation bleeding) before he went down. I promise my hygiene is top tier just a slip of the moment. I also haven’t talked to him much since then so that causes worry sn we both just got out of our engagements so things have been slow. He also gets tested regularly. I don’t want to unknowingly pass anything around, so I scheduled another test with quest today and next fissure that pops up will be swabbed.
Should I test roche igg results and let it go? Bit of a hypochondriac.. and no one has ever told me that I gave them hsv outside of my ex talking about a possible cold sore. But he hasn’t had any problems down south or any visible cold sores.
Sorry for the rant just don’t have anyone to talk to this about.