u/iamembarassedd

i don’t go a single day without craving death. i know i want to die, i want it SO deeply that it crosses my mind every second. but im too scared. so instead i do everything in my power to make my depression even worse, i isolate myself from everyone and tell myself over and over how worthless i am, in hopes that it’ll finally get so unbearable that i get the courage to end it. im trying to push myself over the edge so i don’t have to suffer anymore. does anyone else do that? it makes me feel like a faker