Senioritis is getting bad - what do I do?
(I guess this is also a bit of a rant/vent) What the title says. And I mean bad bad. I’m a really good student and I usually have a good work ethic (I have 90+ in all my classes), but lately I haven’t been feeling it. For some context, I’m taking physics 30, ela 30-1 and math 31 this semester. I’m taking physics through outreach and I feel so stupid all the time. It’s been getting worse. And I’m the only person taking it so I have no one to collaborate with. For English… well it’s just not my strong suit. The CART diploma feels so daunting. I’m trying to study death of a salesman (and I will to the best of my abilities) but my old motivation is nowhere to be found. I got accepted into uofa for engineering so I feel like there’s not even a point to trying to strive for 90s in English, but at the same time my average was over 95 and god knows I’m too damn broke to not get that $6000 scholarship. So I’m stuck. I don’t see the need, but I also don’t want to get burned out. And also, my sister hasn’t been attending school and she just dropped her bio 30 class and all I can think is “damn I wish that were me” but also it’s so frustrating because I feel like I have no one around me to motivate me. And I know, it’s all about discipline but I feel like I’m genuinely getting depressed. All the sudden everything feels so overwhelming compared to previous years/the beginning of the year. And, because I’ve been such a high achiever for so long, I feel like if I fall off the wagon that my whole identity is going to be shattered. And another thing, is that maybe I’m not even meant for engineering. If I’m struggling right now, how the hell am I going to make it through engineering!?!?! But I feel like I just need to suck it up…. IM SO LOST.
And also, I’ve been trying to have more balance… I guess. I make sure to work out and go for walks and read (for leisure) and write poetry (not for homework, I just like writing it) and go to bed at a good time but I still feel like I’m going insane.
So, for anyone going through the same thing/for all the A+ students, how are you dealing with it?