Does anyone fantasise about fixing their life and having a bunch of social hobbies?
Literally every day I plan to go on a walk and then I tell myself it’s too early in the morning and then I say I can’t go out in the day since that would be too overwhelming so I’ll just wait for the sun to start setting and then I think there will probably be a bunch of people out of work and school and then I say it’s too late to go on a walk when it’s nighttime and I do that every single day without fail😭 and in the mean time because I genuinely believe I’m about to turn my life around I just start fantasising about going on jogs and going to clubs and studying in a library and meeting friends and never manage to start
xD I did manage to drink a bunch of vodka and go to a rave at night with these girls I’d never met before though so a win is a win I also tried weed for the first time and I pretty much blacked out the entire time and accidentally fell so I’m kind of worried that they wouldn’t want to go out again but ;; it’s my new year’s resolution to try to get out more and try making friends since I’m starting school again in September and I want to be somewhat normal since I haven’t had irl friends since I was a teen