u/hemelvlam

And it still doesn't feel like enough. I am going to Ukraine in a couple of days but can't beat the feeling that I can do it "one more time".

I can't, because it will probably land me in the hospital a fourth time and obviously I will be in no shape to travel.

I've had three blood transfusions and hundreds of stitches. I almost died twice. I still have severe anemia and feel horrible most of the time.

Still I really want to do it tonight. I want to do it so badly. I want to feel the life poor out of me, I want the pain, I want it so much. I don't know if I can stop myself. I don't if I want to

Goats, cows, camals milk. But not pigs, even though it is a common farm animal. Why?